You are more

this day has left me feeling every feeling possible

we get presents on Christmas
we get presents on Christ's birthday. His.
just like we get presents on our birthday. ours.

i'm thinking Christmas needs to be different. a lot different.
i'm thinking everyday needs to be different


a book i ordered came in today and it's called Sex God: Exploring the Endless Connections Between Sexuality and Spirituality. i can't wait to read it

God has put friends in front of me that i've needed for so long recently. they are great ones

poop=studyingforfinals

every living thing goes away

i never know what to say when asked what i am thankful for. family? friends? good food? well.. yeah. i guess those are some. but there is so many more! so! many! everything! uh huh. i am rich. richer than 95% of the world. and i do not live in a mansion, have a new car, or have every new thing on the market.
i have a car
i have atleast one pair of shoes
i have atleast one set of clothes
i have food that i know will be there for a while
i have lots of things
but those are things. so why do we have to be so thankful for them? i guess i don't mean its bad to be thankful, i just mean lets realize we have THINGS to be thankful for. and not say we are poor. or be unhappy with the things we do have.

i saw a bumper sticker a while back that said "Live simply so others can simply live"

it was a good one


MEOW

the love level in my church is non existant, i think.
no one gets why we need God. no one gets how to Love. maybe a few.
i feel more "Church" when i'm around some people at school then i do at that building. which kind of makes me happy. because that's kind of how it should be. but then not. at the same time. poooopi dont know!

i am thankful for those people

and i'm thankful that i can talk to God. the fact that anyone can talk to the creator of everything is really, really, really impressive. to say the least

i give You all of me

i wonder if people think about the words they are singing when they sing
and how silly some people sound when they sing words to songs.
because, personally.. i'm not fly like a g6

how great is our God?
i'd like to understand. glad i can't.

today i made a cake

i have so much to express but i can't get it out of my head!

i know what i know what i know

do i know what i want? no NEVER.
BUT i meen hai ima gurl LOLZ

....


ME AND KATIE taught people how to succeed in high school without really trying yesterday. and we got third place medals for it. what a job, right? we get to next weekend as well. teach i mean, not win,maybe. but maybe so.
winning with your best friend is something great!
!

the weather!
is!
cold!
i forgot my coat in my locker, though. now i can't wear it all weekend or in the morning on monday. which is when i actually need it. OHWELLIGUESS

the missionary convention is in some amount of days i don't feel like counting right now. maybe 13 or so. yeah, that sounds right. we'll go with 13. KENTUCKY? is where it is taking place this year. i hear that it is an 8 hour drive. fine, fine
this is typically a good three days. so well.. i am looking forward to it quite a bit

in other news. bekah and i lost a chili contest. sad day






ITS NOVEMBER GUYS. ALMOST CHRISTMAS. ALMOST 2011. ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY. not in that order though

this is where the healing begins

Dad: jamie.. tell me if you think this is funny.. today i saw a bumper sticker that said "dolphins are just gay sharks" .. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Me: haha yeah dad, definitely a great one

Dad: i just cracked up for minutes!


love that man.



i have few great friends. they are the best in the world, though.

don't you know it's true?

the night is young!

and i will use this night
to go and hang out with people at rebekahs house. and then who knows what i'll do. not i, nu uh. not. me.
go home? more than more than likely

the thoughts and ideas i'm having lately would get me yelled at by some people (one) so much
i don't. care.

why are my last two classes on these days so full of me just sitting there, talking to no one. I COULD make a converstion with someone. i could.
will i?
..
....?
?!
no

it is almost CHRISTMAS time.
chrismakah.
i need to watch the OC soon. i am so behindso.behin.d

THIS NIGHT I WILL LEAVE. not. physically. but. in every other way.
you.
because i am forced not to care

tonight i am. annoyed. at myself, mostly. because i am so dumb some days. because i do not know what is best for me. i do, actually. which makes me more annoyed

i wander from the dreams that keep me calm and tame

the scent of the Summer Orchard candle from Bath & Body Works is just the best. the best they have. Febreez's Pumpkin Harvest. though. is better than the best. it's so completely possible to be better than the best. That candle scent does it and does it well

i really really really really really really don't feel like doing anything. just not my homework, actually

have you tried nutella? if not, do that, and then. well you will just keep doing that everyday because its taste is so great

two days ago, maybe, i was walking up to my front door to come inside. from the outside. in the early evening sometime. and Elsie meowed her normal hello to me. THEN
the tree branches started rustling and bird chirps were heard. Elsie then did something that i've never seen a cat do in real life. SHE CLIMBED THE TREE. and went out on the very edge of the weak looking branch. of course, the bird had flown away by then. but she was THERE. IN THE TREE. i got nervous when she started meowing. like she couldn't get down. or something. but i was silly to get nervous because cats can do anything. that's the message of this story.

i'm going to go play bop it

where is it she goes?

Jalen: I'm going to own TEN cats when i grow up
Me: :D
Jessica and Jalen make my day great. we sang into umbrellas today
so does elsie and maggie
everyday. elsie is sitting/laying on the bench in my front yard when i get home from school. a doll, she is

i am reading a book called Beautiful Lies.
it is by Lisa Unger
it. is. beyond great.

most days, i leave school thinking "why was i excited for this"
school = this

this past week i have been lazier than ever




GLORY

while you hurt with all that pain, the stars will kiss your pretty face

no body has to stay. but we wish they would anyway

i want to read more books. lots more. the list keeps getting longer and longer, but i have yet to start reading
also, i miss having 9 pets. 2 dogs, 2 cats, 4 fish, a hamster. it was nice to care for and come home to so many things that would love you no matter what kind of day you had

i will always be upset with the fact that i do not have a younger sibling. i need someone to help me bring out my inner kid and the joy of being young. i want someone to look up to me and always want to be around me. i wouldn't be a butt of a sister and tell them to go away. i would hug and kiss them everyday and help them with their homework. and their problems. and things. and anything. and more

I AM COMPLAINING
i am sorry
i i i i i i i


i've gotta put these thoughts somewhere

we were young, we didn't care

fifty states fifty lines fifty crying all the times
fifty boys fifty lies fifty im gonna change my mind

school is : time consuming; good
the days of having nothing to do are over. sad, but happy. :):

meow?

i hope the nice people with the last name of Hobbs + Foster can keep my cat, Elsie at their house. my mother said either that, or we have to take it to the SHELTER. WHAT. yeah uh huh
i have never cried when someone ive known has died.. but if i have to take a cat i've had since March to the shelter, my eyes will be drier than the desert when i am done

i am annoyed at people who think that school spirit or going to sporting events is dumb or un cool
teacher: "Okay everyone stand up and tell us why or why not you're going to the football game tonight when i call your name"
annoying boy: "i'm not going because i have a life"

SHUT .
UP

that is all

"People universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you're fortunate enough. But that's not how happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."
-Eat, Pray, Love (pg, 260)

i'm sorry i can't stay

if i could, i would be a mermaid. at an aquarium. as my career

i am amazed at how rarely i wear pants in my house. WHAT A GOOD TIME

tomorrow i want to go to Those Were The Days and buy a hammock. Because i hear they have them there. and i have even sat in one. the store is so large though. i don't know where to look

babysitting is the funnest job to have

BYE

my love's another kind

Phillipa. The strangest name for a girl i've ever heard of. Also, the movie Inception was not everything i hoped it would be. Too long & not clear enough. but it was fine. i. guess

the gray kitten in my garage almost trusts me enough to let me pet it. gaining the trust of animals is a wonderful feeling, really. kind of surprising
Pitchfork is over. and it happened without my attendance. i'll go one day though. i will? !!
a CSI made me cry a couple hours ago. this is the second time it has happened in the history of my love of the show. which has been about a year. GOODNESS its quite a show. New York is best. Miami is worst. Vegas is the middle. I want the seasons on DVD so i can watch all day. a day full of CSIs? my kind of day
two of my greatest friends' 16th birthdays will/have happened lately. i worded that weird but umm hi
i am no good at keeping secrets because i accidentally told one what i got them. SILLY.
yesterday, those same two kids got me a long, old lady looking dress that is covered in cats. free, of course at the salvation army. i'm not entirely sure what to do with it



"May your whole life become a resonse to the truth that you have always been loved, you are loved, and you always will be loved. And may you know deep in the depths of your soul; there's nothing you could ever do to make Him love you less. Nothing."

Rob Bell Nooma 10 Lump

you're changing your heart

Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 –A song that makes you happy
Day 04 A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year



i am doing this. i am i am i am. but not everyday. just its gonna be every post. a post every day for 30 days? no way jose

favorite song at the moment - Put ur hands up-Family Force Five
nothing will beat this song for a while. hahaha

6 days until a male gets back. my favorite male, actually

I GOT THE WATCH I GOT IT. it's delicious looking. i also bought my weight in clothes at Urban.. whooooops. that's an exaggeration but still, it was quite a few. plus some nift shoes.
Nassif = not that exciting at all. i'm glad i haven't wasted my money on it at all this summer. only 5 dollars of my sisters

last year at this time i was in Chicago
God has made my life a mess this year. but it's become so beautiful recently and it's only because of all of that. i will never know why God makes something great, only from something terrible. i will never know why God does most things. i will always be okay with that. who wants to love a God that is easily figured out?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pn8xjONVOUg

touch the sun

my nikon loyalty is being questioned by myself
Canon PowerShot SX120 IS
it takes good pictures. i've seen i have i have
it is not too good though. because no one wants something that is too good. right? wrong. but in this case..

look what happened today
look







i have never seen a stem on a strawberry before. new experiences. everyday

in 16 days i will kiss a male

you've got to let go

being a female is not cool. not cool at all

i think. the problem. is that i can't be okay with someone loving me. forever. i think. that is it. i think. i should. stop. thinking everything. is not real. unless it's not.

TWENTY THREE DAYS until nyr. that is my favorite place to be in the world.

my friends and myself spent the time from 5:30pm to 2:30am in the movie theater. i don't even LIKE twilight that much. especially now. it was too much. good. but too much. bella is kind of a stupid girl. she is definitely a stupid girl. YOU CAN'T LOVE TWO PEOPLE LIKE THAT. you can't. that's not even close to love if she thinks she can. no

igootsomeniftysandals. they gave me a blister, though. rude

anyone want some strawberry swirl cheesecake? get on over here

i'll move out of the way for her

"i have to say.. you make the best facial expressions. you can give one look and i know exactly what you mean. You don't have to say anything."
this was said to me. i don't think it is a compliment. nu uh

i want to start cooking things!
a garden would be nice. but i don't think i could actually grow anything. i may try it one day though. one day
this past week has been great. time is going by incredibly slow, though. which is good, but not good. there are pros and cons to everything in the world
the fact i can't sleep until 4 or 5 in the morning every nightdaywhatever: con
the fact i can think and things until i do finally fall into a sleep: pro
SEE! see?
i've taken two showers today. it's been happening frequently. i should learn to save some water

no one wants to sleep with me. except maggie. but she's a cat

my retainer tastes terrible in the mornings. at night it is not a problem. i have been using this 3d whitening mouth wash and it has given me forever long fresh breath. even as i sleep. yeah. uh huh
i don't know why it has the 3d attatched at the front of it's name, though. whatever

i am going to a wedding saturday







i can't wait for this. i can't

when i can't comprehend that You are there.. You are there

happiest day i've had in a while. not that others haven't been great, but this one had some spunk, ya know
i wouldn't call it spunk actually. i'd call it God

i feel bad for my cat, Maggie. she is so incredibly afraid of anyone who walks in the door that is not me or the three other people living in my house. the poor woman..
also..
the plans i have for college at this point involve me not being able to have any cats living with me for four years. um. u.h. ..righ.t
BUT i would get a little sister. and that is what i've always wanted! really, yeah, serious
Family Force 5 is something great to go crazy to. just krayzee

don't let those useless things get you.. don't

highway travelin'

today was a good day
i enjoy being with 3 women who are my absolute favorites. You know, swimming, laying around, sharing secrets, talking about girl things like periods and such. only of course
A ginormous turtle was spotted. A mom said it was an alligator snapping turtle. big and silly are perfect describing words for it

i have a new love and it is The OC.
sorrrrrrymichaelhobbs. sorry
just kiddin, jk kidding justly, obviously

Maggie, the cat not the friend, does not like when i pet Elsie. She hissed at the scent of my hand today. They can't be friends i guess. rather disappointing.

G2GWATCHTHEOCBAI

painting your curve in my hand

Sometimes, weddings can be fun
yes they can
i bite my tongue and cheeks a lot. it hurts, but i think i have gotten used to it to the point where the pain has lessened each time. which is good, i suppose
i wish i could know everything. but i can't

this has been a long 7 days. a week. 3 + 4
2 + 5
6 + 1
7 + 0
3.5 x 2
pewp

Hunger has not been a problem since the summer started. I do not feel hunger at all in the morning. Sometimes, i wait until maybe 4 hours after i get up to eat something just because i think i should.. so i don't die or something. But it is strange. twizzlers! ice cream! popsicles! chips and salsa! watermelon! apples! captain crunch! this is all, ever. Permanently, i would not mind
Everything seems to go bad when it's winter time. I don't look forward to it. Somewhere mostly warm all the time is where i want to be. Then everyone would be happier. glader. smilier. gooder. why not?

how could everything exist without God? People with the ability to walk on their hands do not grow from trees. Having the ability to think is not anything that can be made by anything but God. Everything has got to mean something to you. It's got to

where's this place we need to see?

this worry free life will be short lived
i hope something great happens

Wedding on saturday? yes

oh, hey blog..

summertimeismyfavoritetime

so far it has been alright. not completely amazing, but it will do.
Michael left for Mexico today. I am sad, but very happy because i suppose it will be an enjoyable thing for him. 6 weeks will go by fast hopefully

I watched the movie Fireproof last night and cried my eyes out for about an hour after. Out of their sockets.. just popped right out. All nonsense aside though, that movie reminds me of what love is. Not a feeling. But a committment and a decision.
I almost never want to say I love you to a person again unless i can love them all the time, no matter what they do to me.
and i have said i love you to someone
and i mean it. because although i'm young, I have God's love. I know His love. Because of that, I can love someone unconditionally. I do love someone unconditionally.

i am hoping and praying so hard







ALSO
my sisters old roommate just brought over her new rotwiler or however you spell it puppy. it's paws are humungo

i was praying that you and me might end up together

I have spent more time with Elsie than ever this weekend. She is like my own, now. I fed her, so i do hope she stays around like she has been. That woman beat a moth down with one hit and ate it. A slug was attempted, but she spit it out. I do not blame her
My mom wanted me to straighten her hair tonight. I did, and she looks like a fox
the weather is supreme
i do not have a busy life. Unless i am with friends, i enjoy doing nothing at all. sleeping. sitting. standing. playing with my cats. talking to my sister. listening. to music. eating. standing/sitting. sitting/standing. reading. cooking. it's really all i do. with my time
a dream catcher would be nice. I don't normally have bad dreams. just weird ones. a teacher was in one last night.. i went to his house and he had chairs everywhere. and cats.. so.. i might ask him if he has any
one more week of school.
4. more. days. in. all.
my sister left for North Carolina at 4:30 today with two of her friends. They will arrive at 11 ohohohohclock.ish tomorrow morning. crazy folks.
IMISSMYDAYUD
that is all

painting a dotted line

Audrey Hepburn has got to be the prettiest girl ever to have lived. ever

i have had the most delightful week with my friends. good people would be a suitable phrase to describe them. just good people
with a less than 2 weeks of school left, my excitement for the summer has gotten to be unbearable.
michael leaving for almost 2 months this summer = the poopy part
the ground is wet and i am sneezing many times in a day. maybe i could set a world record. it truly is not likely, though
spring, you are a love of mine
a man was selling free cats today at walmart. actually, selling is not the right word for it. giving away. away a way awa y uh way
they looked cold and were huddled together like cats should be. they know whats up
everyday i wish for a little brother
i think i'm going to steal geoffs. even though he is two years younger than myself. i'm going to steal him
a giant mirror would be nice



the best

childhood rhythms

a person whom i love gave me a laser today. my cat is having a hay day with it
she's a cute.e.e.e.e.e.e

singapore = the place where i want to live. they have it figured out

i do not like getting partnered up with a person who i don't make usual conversation with. i am bad at making conversation with most people anyway. so stop it, you silly teachers, you

school is ending? what? huh? what?
i like my best friends and baseball

let's not hurry

look who came back
it was a pleasant surprise

time to myself is one of my favorites

lullaby

if there was a perfect day, today would probably almost be it

everything is possible right now. everything
oh sunchips, hey. you made your bag decompostable? oh, cool. i like how it's metal and practically slices me open when i reach inside. its okay though, honestly

my school work is not doing the best lately. summer is too close in my mind

i'll try to find my place with you

funny. things are that

kids are my second favorites ever. animals being the first..namely cats though. i will throw my kid or kids birthday parties
princess. ladybug. some movie. whatever theme they would like
i'm going to keep being a kid with them

i don't know what i'm doing. i just want no lies. none
or secrecy
i hate it

duck feeding? i think its a nice gesture for them. they should deserve something classy
Elsie came back once. I have yet to see her again, sadly. My cat is better, though. She likes having people watch her eat, play and sleep. It's my job
mowmowmowmowmowmowmow?
what?
i'm going to take a shower

we sleep apart for the last time

that is not me... it's really not.

i think i figured it out; we need to be together

a cat came up to my window last night. long hair. grey white and orange. i sat outside with it for an hour. it slept in my lap half the time. i took it in the garage for a couple minutes, but then my dad got a little mad.
i really, really hope it comes back
ill feed it next time. i named it Elsie. I could tell it was a girl by the way she acted. Second prettiest cat i've ever seen. even though it was a little scruffy. I WANT IT TO COME BACK

take me to a place

Bob and Amy and Bree and Andrew and Bella are leaving. this news sucks. bad.
who ever the new youth leader is has big shoes to fill.
crazy how God can mess up peoples lives. it's absolutely beautiful though. It's comforting to see two people make such a huge decision because God calls them to. Boston, you're getting the first family who cared about me in a way i never knew was possible. I am glad you are, though

God gives your life a purpose..
i promise

go out and love

i have slept so much today. i doubt i will go to sleep tonight
my cat needs to come out of hiding because i'm bored without her. she needs a friend, i tell my parents.. but they seem to not think the same. which is a downer
SNOW?!?!?!?!?!!WHATTHEHECK!?!?!?!
i dont care that much, actually. it would be nice if it didn't happen, though. school should get over as soon as possible
i've been asking myself if this is real life.. because good things are happenin'
life is happenin'

(:

smiling is my hobby the past few days
i'm excited

today, i watched baseball and.. stuff..
also, i washed morgan and kylies cars with them. its a fun time, actually. but my hands are a little black because tires are dirty and gross. you can't blame them, though. they are the ones on the ground, doing all the real work
WHYCANTISTOPSMILING
oh, right

the fireflies fade as the city lights find me

most likely, people now won't matter in 4 years.
i won't let them
unless they want to

animals can feel, think, and talk to each other. they just have to be able to. i have no doubt

fade on to the summer time

i feel so good
good people make it that way. i was not aware of the amounts of people who care about me. it is a very warming feeling
my cat gets horribly nervous and skittish after someone she doesn't know comes into the house. it's hard to calm her down
somedays, i wish i had a little brother. not a little sister, though. today is one of those days
gregg is talented at talking
sam is talented at rockband
i learned after school
it was a radiohead day in school. it gladly played in my ears

i will look different in a couple years. it is weird thinking about it

i am small, i'm needy

this is tough

i am my own person for the first time today. its been that way literally for a while, but today.. i am in my head as well.

i am not in the writing mood lately

i really miss what really did exist

Chicago + Bekah + Stephanie + Kylee + James + Mikey T + Bob = my spring break
it is going to be the best one i have ever, ever had. i am going to cry when final decisions are made. literally.y.y.y
tonight i am staying at my sisters house. Her friend mariska is over studying.. I think that sounds like a stripper name
Geoff and Chance are coming over as well so my night will be fun.

i dont need that kid. i don't

P.S. I just met Mariska and she does not look like a stripper, so.. cancel that assumption.

when you look how you look

one of the blinds on my window did not follow the rest when i opened them. i will let it be
i'll let other things be, too. really, i will
this is day mine to myself. I am happy about it
this night is gregg, sam, christy, and kevins, though
cop out is a fairly good movie. sometimes, it was funny. other times, it was not

my mind is so confused, i climb back on top of you

i worry about things

something is wrong with my cat :(
i am worried about her
among other things

whatever you are

today is a good day. a good one
i should be doing my spanish homework because i have to make up a test tomorrow anyway
it will get done in a while

opportunity is everywhere, all the time. i noticed it especially today. i need to more days than i do now

it is possible to care about someone so much it hurts you. it really is. not even a significant other. today i've been noticing things, and i care a lot for my friend Victor. It hurts me knowing he is afraid to love God. and.. there is so many people like that, where it hurts me knowing they don't want to understand God or aren't trying to. But Victor.. today is just got to me. i need to talk to him again soon

i am ready for summer. i am ready for a change that is hopefully to come with other people..person.. yeah

there will be no other

at youth group tonight, we talked about our relationships with people and which one was most important. and how it was alike and different to our relationship with God.
It got me thinking 1) about my kids. even more
2) which person really means the most to me
it was a tough one, but i think i know

i'm really wanting to read this Forgotten God book..
reading a million books at once is not a great idea

there is nothing i admire more than a kid like faith

when our frames collide..

my cat may look good in shorts one day. she is losing pounds on pounds, thanks to her new diet food.

am i nervous? yes

talking to God is getting easier and easier

don't let it grow

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=39043170

(:
this is useful for weddings this summer, among other things

we only fight, cause you love me right

i am happy. this is going to be great, i have no doubt

snow is again suppose to come, but if it doesn't, i will smile some more

i need to get a job soon because:
Pitchfork festival
if i can go, i will be the happiest kid on the earth
earth of happy kids
that's creepy

He can move the mountains

I am humbled in the fact that God forgives everyone who asks and believes in him. Forgiving is probably the hardest thing for me to do, and knowing everything i have done and everything everyone has done.. man. God loves me even though i have completely disregarded him before. even though i have done things that aren't the best ideas in the world. Think of how much sin there is. That is insane. Someone wrongs me once, and its the hardest thing ever to forgive them. But I am. Loving like God is what I am aiming for. I do that, and God will provide for me. I know it.

one

loving is hard to do at the moment. i don't want to at all.
i
am
so
mad

i have seen you

saturdays are necessary

summer seems quite close. school is now something i just get through. I don't enjoy it too much at all. If there is any possible way for me to graduate early, i am going to take that way.
i'm older than i was yesterday. you are too. tomorrow, we'll be even older

should cream colored clothing go in the wash with whites? or the normal things?
i call it the normal things. my mom calls it permanent press.
i was driving my mother to alewels something or other earlier today. the road was blinding, but i could not take my eyes off of it. it looked beautiful
also, i woke up this morning at four thirty in my basement on a futon. I don't remember laying down on it in the first place. But i went to my bed and slept the rest of my tiredness away
falling asleep without washing my face or brushing my teeth makes me feel especially not comfortable
i am looking forward to sleeping tonight. clean sheets are the best type of sheets
i can't find my camera
my next birthday and christmas present is going to be a nikon d40

ALSO
i learned that rebekah is related to the singer from The Afters. He fixed her camera once

somewhere in between

SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS LOTS OF THEM ALL THE TIME

I am going to bekahs tonight though. so there is no sighing there. i have no school spirit as of lately. I don't want to cheer for people who are such jerks. I should, but nope

Dogs are great, although i am a cat person. I miss my dogs and i wish I had one again. I love walking them
memorizing a skit in spanish = my goal for the weekend

you're a bird with songs to shout

Bella is by far the best movie i have seen.

lately, I have been thinking about and praying for my kids or kid i'll have one day, if i end up having any. it might be weird to you, and by you, i don't really know, but i'm starting to write letters to them. Of course i can't send them right now, but i think ill show them one day to them

also

go listen to the song Marvelous Light by Charlie Hall
and Can you Feel It by David Crowder Band

my favorites of the day/week/while

he says i'm so lost, not at all well

sigh
that's all i can say about that

Saturday=winner of all saturdays
a bunch of us are heading to Central Christian College of the Bible tomorrow morning to hang out and see others from NYR.. and I am most excited to see some of my favorite cats Seth and Zach! Lucma is going to be there as well, which is great. I am hoping there is a group going to Haiti this summer. i really would love to go
Maggie is such a lap cat now, it's unbelievable. it sometimes hurts to have her on me, she is awfully heavy.

me and bekah are watching kids tonight. BYE

i'll do that on mondays

Apple must really be cracking down on this whole jailbreaking thing. thankfully, my best friend for life, bffl, bff, um.. brother.., is the smartest cookie out there
downloading of music will commence now. and for the next few days nonstop
whatever

this weekend will be one of my favorites, i think.

rock n'sports or the vet? I don't know which one i want to try

ill trust in You

God's will >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> what i want
this messes up some things. i can't wait to see what else he wants for me, though

IRON CHEF CHALLENGE?!?!
yeah, one was had today. The challenge made by bekahs brothers + michael andrew walton was to see who could make the most delectable dessert using butterfingers and reeses. Bekah and myself made a pie, which was the victorious dish over Kylee and Stephanie's layer dessert. Both, though, we really tasty.

the rest of my day can't be described i suppose. i loved it all
the best part is that i am even more wildly in love with my Savior. that love that He gives... its the best anyone can have. and please don't blow that off..
the peace i have.. i can't even explain it. and i don't even understand all of it
which is amazing

http://crazylovebook.com/videos_stop.html


watch this.
please

i am amazed of God. i really don't know what to say

leave go my golden arm

snow on thursday is the word on the street. i'm hoping the street is lying to me

i have not liked the past month. now, it is getting better. which is happily making me happy
i don't need things/um people i thought i did. but i do need some, i've learned

not pointless posts are to come..

you're all i ask for

i made a snow fort with michael today. i'm sure i could become a professional

it was a strange thing to do

i am discovering loads of music i am loving. it's rather exciting. i needed it

with 4 out of 4 of my walls white, i can pretty much put whatever color furniture or what have you in there, and it will match. navy is my favorite color with white, so it will stay that way for quite sometime
stephanie
amy
rebekah
made the day not boring one bit
the whole harken family is my favorite one

maggie makes me feel like an owner of something important when she sleeps on me and lays her head on my arm. she's a dork


i had a wonderful friday. did you?

don't get any big ideas

I
AM
BORED

also, nervousness just took over my body for two seconds because i thought my whole itunes library was gone. alas, it showed up just as a tear dropped from my eye
(only not)

The Prestige is a movie that i've gotten a liking for. i think i'm watching it again with my dad tonight, even though i did last night. Thom Yorke at the end made it greater than it was suppose to be

i read half of a book today. about to go read the other half. how great

smiles all around

the peace God gives is absolutely necessary to me. it's by far better than anything i've ever experienced. God is so, so good. Not many people try to understand that. I'll never understand everything about Him or true christianity, but the pursuit of that excites me and is what i want. He still loves me considering everthing. That's all i need
or anyone needs
so think about it

they say that falling in love is wonderful

it's wonderful so they say


Frank Sinatra made his way into my ears and is here to stay. the style of music is great, just great

I do hope for a snow day on tuesday. White days will become my favorite now for an unmentionable reason
also, i want to sled with rebekah mae harken
she's my favorite kid ever
so school can go away for one more day

mystery is the greatest whatever ever, i think

show me your heart

i believe God will do what he wants. and I'm learning to be okay with that

Dennis the Menace or however you spell it is an adorable movie. watch it one day

if we'd hidden a bit better

i feel like summer is getting closer. i mean, its THIS YEAR. i want nothing more than that right now. except maybe not nothing

Gregory and the Hawk = wins in being played the most the past two weeks and now. her voice is amazing

not again. not again

my cat would not look good in shorts