it's been so long

INTENSE SOCCER = TODAY

plus a trip to walmart. and a michael tonight
at walmart, a little boy, who couldn't have been more than 3, was walking past me when he stuck his hand up and tapped his palm on my leg. it was high enough to make me uncomfortable.

there is something i am becoming passionate about, beside Jesus.. and cats.. actually.. i can't really compare Jesus to any thing. but that is a different paragraph.
ANYWAY
it's come to my attention, a while back really, that some models are absolutely horrifying. the idea of a "beautiful girl" has become so corrupt, it's sickening. there are girls that go to such extreme measures to look like those that are seen in magazines. it breaks my heart to hear about people thinking they are not good enough or pretty enough for anyone. God made no mistakes making anyone. he doesn't love a complete stick more than anyone else. the world shoves things at us, giving us such a perverse picture of what we should look like. it's.. ah.
ridiculous.

the night

oh, this week has ruled
this weekend will too

my teacher says i write too informally. okay

everyones birthday is so soon. really, there are lots coming. the city needs to be visited by myself

in the past two weeks, i have
1. saw a lot of cats
2. said words..(:
3. put eyeshadow on for the first time ever. it looked terrible. but i did it at night so it was alright
4. spent many hours laying by my window with my cat
5. cleaned up said cat's abundant hairballs
6. made applesauce
7. spent time with michael. he is a lot of things. i do like it
8. planned over half my summer
9. noticed things about everyone
10. started reading ANOTHER book. that's 5 at the moment
11. watched Grey's Anatomy for the second time ever. i don't like it
12. had an odd dream
13. painted
14. decided not to work anywhere with food. not for me

i'm going to hang out with Katie and Marie and other fun folk at theater now.
then Morgan and Jamie after that

friends are great things to have

you found me

i don't like hurting people. at all
i wonder if i'll ever accept my own apology to someone else
idon't know why i had to not talk. i dont know
i dont
i dont
i dont
i'm glad people forgive people
i'm glad things are different
i'm glad i am different
i'm glad of a lot of things

now.. everything will be okay

the only one who's ever known who i am, who i'm not, and who i wanna be

i have a lot to think about all the time

i had a little slippi

i am excited. i am happy. i am hesitating.


i really, really want a Nikon D40. BADBADBAD. there are so many opportunities for fantastic pictures
papayas are disgusting. coconuts also. i tried them today. a liking for fresh pineapple developed, though
ITSALWAYSSUNNYINWHERE?
philadelphia. that is where, my friend
at 9 o'clock
not for me though. another hour
one day less than 3 months and it will be my birthday
one six
it is quite a few years if thought about.
a cat was meowing outside of a window in my basement this morning. it sounded absolutely adorable. i also notice that i write the word cat a lot. CAT
tadpoles are inhabiting the bird bath in front of my house. cute things, they are
i heard today that being a vet takes as much work as being a doctor. well, okay

i wonder about what would've happened if i didn't have a relationship with God. if i made a choice to keep my pride a couple months ago. i flushed that jazz down the toilet, though. i am so, so, so, so, so, so lucky i did


p.s. cross one eye, it is a good time

p.p.s. i don't know why it says i posted this two days ago

please don't

sometimes, i dont like the way i am

you're working for the police and the private

i want to be a vet

i do miss summer.. really, really badly. that is the time i am looking forward to. plus everything after that.
also, i wish everyone listened to Animal Collective.
Frances is a good name for a cat
morgans kittens are adorable. all cats are adorable, what am i thinking?
everyone looks the same i've noticed. that i why i don't like here. ialso feel more mature than my grade. possibly the nextone as well. sometimes, i'm silly



i feel so good about living tonight